I'm terrified right now. But okay...
So long story short I have a parent who's... nuts. I don't mean it offensive it's just that she's not mentally well and she wasn't to nice to grown up to and she's now living in the street down town.
I'm 19 years old, living with my dad who thinks it's funny to compare me to her.
I'm been handling myself but lately it's been getting bad and I think I might need help.
I've been raised and have stored in my depest knowledge that it's not good. I don't want to need help. I don't wanna be like her. I don't wanna.
I have panic attacks once in a while but I can deal with them.
I have low self-esteem, believe that I'm not worth any trouble and bother my friends, to whom I don't talk to about this.
But I have a LJ account.
And I've made it my personal sanctuary and release center and friends I've made online have recently been getting worried for me.
I think it might be helpful if I talked to someone.
I've never done this before so please don't jump on me for these requests.
I don't wanna talk to a different person every week.
I'm a student and my parents are pretty poor.
I live in Montreal and hold a medicare card and Canadian citizenship.
I don't wanna go on medication.
I just wanna openly talk to a human being who I won't have to see and who'se reactions and changed behaviour towards me won't make me feel like it would've been better if I had just shut up.
Can anyone recommend a therapist or psychologist or however you call it, who won't charge me or make me in line.
I really don't want my dad to find out - I really don't want to hear him say he was right and that I'm as crazy as the bitch who use to hit me when I was small.
I'm also a student if that helps any - but I would prefer if it was someon outside of school.
Confidential - please.
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