I posted here awhile ago..
I joined Revivre - Quebec Anxiety, Depressive and Bipolar Disorder Support Association.. in hopes that maybe they could point me in the right direction.
So I finally go there today, and basically get told that they can't do anything for me.. except give me their hotline number. I wasn't expecting like OH HERES A DOCTOR YOU CAN SEE ASAP sort of thing. I guess I wanted to be pointed in a direction.. since I don't know what to do really. I literally started to cry in front of them, and just left after.
Its so hard to reach out sometimes.. and it being very hard for me to go and ask for help, it was pretty bad that I sort of got rejected in a way.
So, I hope you guys can help me out.
I want to find out whats wrong with me... because every year it's affecting my life more and more. Basically.. I have suicidial thoughts almost every week. It comes and goes.. but it does get a lot worse in Fall. I don't self-harm.. or abuse alcohol/drugs. My mind can't think straight when I feel suicidial. I overthink and worry too much.. and overreact easily. I clearly know when I'm not thinking straight.. but can't do much to make it go away. Ive been like this since I was a preteen..
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